i went to another winter guard meeting!
i can now to 4 flag movey things left and right handed, i just can't remember what they called :P

i made a duct tape wallet, my first one, and it came out AWESOME!!
i have to go to a football game during my thanksgiving break. yay >.<

during the guard meeting, i hit myself sooooo many times. the flags im using are HUGE
and they hurt >.<

i just had a nightmare/flashback of my first kiss
i don't think ill be able to sleep to well

ive seen it before, but ewewewwww!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aJEr5vM cV0g&feature=related

2nd happy post in a row!! ^_^

i stopped my clothes drying in between the cool down part of it, and they be super warm and comfy!!
yay!! now i can go see teh play and be warm!!

im going out for chinese food this guy i knows dad's restaurant. is soooo tasty!!
that would be awkward if he saw this... THE FOOD IS TEH TASTIES!!! ^_^

i shall be nommin' teh food soon!!

we won again!!
20-3
take THAT!

so that means a football game on saturday... mleh

but at least we dont suck! :D
it was fun, kinda cold...
i had 4 cookies and a hamburger! ^_^

tomorrow, i see a musical my friend got lead role in!

continuing with the ex boyfriend thing, ive been avoiding him by going straight upstairs on A days and on B days, i go straight to the band room. X(
but he saw me in my english class a few days ago, and now he always stops by to wave from the hallway...

i wish it would go 'way!! X_x

in class, im going to be learning how to wrap presents cause we do wrapping booth. (starts black friday, or the day after)

overall, not a bad week. i wanna sleep, but i don't feel like it ^_^
cookies for the win!! :D

so i just got back from my first concert since i started high school
the symphonic band ROCKED!!
it was epic, because when we messed up, it sounded better than the original. >.<

i wish i could have taken pics of me in my concert dress...
is relly pretty!!

for our christmas concert in december, ill be sure to take some pics!! ^_^

so this isn't like me, but nothings working!!

what do you do when someone doesn't get the message that you don't love them?
i used to date this guy, but i broke up with him. we were still friends afterwords, and we can joke around about us breaking up and it doesn't affect either of us.

when it was time for homecoming, he asked me to go with him. twice.
the first time was a letter in my flute case. the second time was in person (only i recieved them in reverse order that he did it)

homecoming came around, and he went with someone else (as friends) and through the whole dance, he was RIGHT there watching me dance with other guys.

after homecoming was the worst. he pretty much made a plan so he could see me between 3 of my 4 classes each day.

he's a sweet guy, by how am i supposed to tell him, without being mean, (cause it don't work with him) that i don't like him, and he needs to stop, cause 2 years is driving me insane!!

hurray for ranting! ^_^

today's injury...

some kid (by that i mean some 18 year old giant) hit me with his shoulder on my nose. it hurts!
i think i have reeeely bad luck...

on the bright side, i now gotz a bottle of BUBBLES!!
more of me being easily amused, but is fun, especially when you make 'em in your room! ^_^
hurray for teh bubbles!!

when i got home, i ate a pickle, a piece of taffy (boonana!) a lolipop (waterzmellon) and chocolate milk!
i eat the weirdest things sometimes... ^_^

so i went to a site that was supposed to have directions on how you get all the symbols on the computer.

it loaded and then the screen went to the screen for when you save stuff on word.

it said "scanning for viruses" and then it said 23 of my documents, 11 pictures, and 14 downloaded items had viruses and then tried to get me to download virus protection software.

i started to panic and seriously almost cried, but then i realized the save screen can't come up in mozilla firefox.

then i lulz

this shall start anew. i cannot remember before this, so you shall not read before this. it says i started march. yesterday, so long ago.

there has been so much pain. i am numb to it now. even cuts. i can't remember them hurting. just the instinct that made me scream.

so much confusion. i cannot count the people that have entered my life, just to leave the next day. the the people who visit now and again.

i read my books. i can believe i used to feel that way, i know it for a fact. those wounds, i could feel.

i don't think i remember what has happened. things don't hit me till they're half over. or till they've reached the last stair before my door.

im proud of myself. it's been almost a year since i've talked to him. right after he left, i erased him. even the pages have been thrown away.

i think i know why he was named that way. i was thinking about another with the same name. my unconscious mind wanted to be with him. im glad he's here. at least, i think it's him. now i can see him. now he is free.

i think i understand more of what i like. i have a split self, but it all depends on the time. i do things the way i want. im so selfish. but sadly, i will never really change.

i can now think i am alone. five will never come.i am not, nor will ever be, the sixth. i may have given them thought, but i know that's all they are. a thought i wished to believe in. i cannot seem to give up her name entirely thought. it's my last memory of a lost dream.

i wish to complete my dream, so that she can find her Forever's Love. it's cruel to keep her away.

ive seen every bit of the moon, but still am not happy. i wish to go to a place entirely my own. i want to boil in my malice and greed, so i can protect others from it.

i don't know, maybe everything will work out. it all depends on my panic. and my ability to say no.