those with emotions just make it harder to hit the ground, im getting a little more or less annoyed with the way things work in this world. why is everything so hard to control? is that the way things are supposed to be? one object stacked on top the other; weaker things below, stronger on top.
i need more time. what time i have is spent by trying to figure out how much ive wasted. ive destroyed over 3 weeks of time doing things i didn't need to be doing. that little clock that keeps track of drained moments continues to tick upwards, even as i type this! because it's not necessary, i could be reading what needs to be read.
this summer has turned out to be filled with more bad than good in it. there are so many things i wanted to do, and tons of people i wished to see! if i ever walk through those double doors again, im almost positive ill start to cry.
i wonder how many people will take one look at this and think, "this is to long, ill just post something random at the bottom." either way, i suppose.
there's another thing ive wondered. people who make an attempt at suicide sometimes leave a sort of escape rope, such as calling someone before they do it, leaving texts, posting something, and then going very slowly about making their preparations. but ive thought back to a moment from this fall, and i wondered where THAT escape rope was. from what i can tell, there wasn't any. what made them stop?
something changed in that person after that night, i cant quite put my finger on it, but it's almost like part of them DID jump, like part of them was run over, but no one could see, so they were left to bleed on the street.
all in all i think that this world has no further use for something like this
semper ama
cr8tive-genius
To me it sounds like your depressed because your summer sucks
redjokerx
if that was the reason, i would have said that :P