please call a surgeon

distressed and hearing things. id rather have a surgeon to operate in place of rusting tools and broken string. so far the gashes heal none, i know not what this means.

concentration is especially hard when all i think about is "what ifs" and "i dont believes."

what if autumn had ended for me that day?
i dont believe anyone would have cared.
what if i could live in a forever sort of state, with leaves of perpetual shades of red?
i dont believe i would mind...

maintaining my consciousness is difficult when all i think about is "i wonders" and "would i's"

i wonder if a spring forever would have been a better time to live?
would i have cared which forever i call my own?
i wonder what it's like, to forever feel the blossoms of springtime brush against your skin, laying in a landscape so green, so soft?
i dont believe i would mind...

continuing to write becomes a challenge when all i can comprehend is "nows" and "nevers"

now i am living in a summer heat, hiding from the sun.
never should i have to live through another spring.
now my chances grow smaller to live in my forever, my obsession is almost to much to bear.
their absence i mind...

please call a surgeon...

please call a surgeon

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S-l-u-t 2010-08-07 00:56:53

That was wonderfully beautiful

redjokerx 2010-08-07 00:56:53

thanks! im surprised it turned out like this, i was kinda tired :P

cr8tive-genius 2010-08-07 00:59:04

I love this

redjokerx 2010-08-07 00:59:04

im glad you like it!

Magnet-Boy 2010-08-07 02:27:45

omtish

redjokerx 2010-08-07 02:27:45

is that good??

XOutlawWolfX 2010-08-07 04:00:54

im fine thanks for askin =)

Beeboto 2010-08-07 12:14:04

its creative

redjokerx 2010-08-07 12:14:04

it is

5lip5tr3am3r 2010-08-07 15:57:46

I could summon a surgeon of the mind
who would excise those memories so unkind
But please do consider and think it through
For our pain and mistakes define us too

redjokerx 2010-08-07 15:57:46

i could perform the perfect exorcism for you,
but a preference to be held in my own skin
is someone who can perform without tools of rusted tin,
for this procedure is such a thing that i wish not to do

5lip5tr3am3r 2010-08-08 04:34:40

Well maybe I should train as a physical fitness trainer as well as a Catholic priest, that way, I can tell people how to exercise as I exorcise them.

Multi tasking !

redjokerx 2010-08-08 04:34:40

im the master anti-tasker

Magnet-Boy 2010-08-08 06:22:37

That's verrry good. :3

redjokerx 2010-08-08 06:22:37

i googled omtish and it goes right to you XD

Decky 2010-08-08 21:55:47

Another good bit of writing from you. Well done, you should really consider studying English Literature or Media. I think you'd do well :).

redjokerx 2010-08-08 21:55:47

im thinking about it, but i hate rules. and grammar. and punctuation. and pretty much everything that is good in the english language XD

Decky 2010-08-09 04:08:44

Go for Media then. Basically watching films and witing scripts :).

redjokerx 2010-08-09 04:08:44

ive edited a script before for drama club, maybe ill do that XD

7swords 2010-08-10 20:50:18

You would grow bored with the world you have created, and eventually want to come back to the one I live in.

redjokerx 2010-08-10 20:50:18

i dont think id ever grow bored of my forever, it changes around me as i stand still

zerogeass 2010-08-10 21:21:05

that sounded super pretty

redjokerx 2010-08-10 21:21:05

thanks blaaaake

Magnet-Boy 2010-08-13 08:18:38